Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Atonement [at-one-with]

Moments of serenity come to me at odd times. Yet, odd is not the right word to describe such moments of balance and contentment. Do I belive in happiness? Sometimes. But I believe in just that; contentment. Nothing is perfect, but it is in these moments that it makes an appearance.
I'm sitting in his driveway, waiting for his exit out the front door. I haven't seen him in months. His presence brings out the best in me, and there is no topping that feeling. Sometimes songs can do the same, often times songs I don't even like. Snow Patrol - chocolate, Christine Evans - Take me Home, Augustana - Found My place... But today, it was the mix of his face and Coldplay - Yellow.

The moment arrives; here, I am me. In this place, I am complete. Reminiscence of certain points in my life where I attain this peace. Spring time, rainy days, night time... time with good friends... reading Harry Potter, listening to the Lord of The Rings soundtrack... My nerdiness impresses me. My heart rate slows, and I close my eyes to relax in this moment. Relax, why is it so easy to do now and so difficult to accomplish when I want or need to? The moment hits its Peak. I think, if I were to suddenly die, I would have no regrets and would forever be at peace (Lamb - Gorecki). Today, it is simple. I know the secrets to life and it joyfully overwhelms me.
Relax. Rest. Be calm. Be at peace....

The moment fades away, but I am still here. I have made a memory.
I will keep this moment forever.